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Harriel Thai
19 this year
15.09.1995

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Saturday, 15 March 2014, 00:25

Another picture of my own photoshoot of a wall decor.

Finally I have finish my examinations after 1 month of revision and I have stop work for 1 month. Running low on cash recently. So bascially I really need to start work soon and earn lots of money if I can provided by the hours and the days I am able to work after I have submitted my working sechdule. 

For this particular 1 month, lots of shits happened. My boyfriend and I practically quarreled every weekend. 
Really EVERY weekend. 
I really got bored of quarrelings for this 1 month. Even when we are talking about outfits, we can almost quarrel. 
However, Thank God, things are quickly settled. 
& I am really happy that things stay the way they are suppose to be. 
We are finally back to our old times when we are super happy like as if we are new lovers.
Once again, I am really proud to call him my boyfriend, my lover and my future husband. 
:) 
3 years and counting of love.




Saturday, 8 March 2014, 19:53

(Current mood : pissed)
I mean like seriously, just fucking move your legs and help out for once, you can die because of it?
You expect me to go to your mother's bedroom and take? HELLO, THERE IS SOMETHING CALL RESPECT RIGHT?
How you would fucking like it when a person just walk into your room, take your stuff and go off?
Use your fucking common sense and think for fuck sake.
Every single time, waking you up is a disaster.
Either we quarrel or you as a sensitive fuck will start saying I give attitude.
I mean, come on, I just drop my portable charger accidentally, you said I give attitude.
So, you meaning is that whoever drops their things means they are giving attitude?
Cool story, bro.
Than make sure you dont drop anything from now on.
I hate your character. Seriously.
Everytime I asked you to change, your favourite sentence will be,'accept me for who I am.'
How about a middle finger to you.
You cant accept me for who I am and expects me to change.
Why cant you do the same thing?
Serious shit man.
Yeah.
I am just being fucking pissed with my own boyfriend. I know he is really a good boyf at times and he loves to shower me with gifts which I love the most and love, of cause.
But I just hate the way he always make people to wait, wait and wait.
Everyday, WAIT.
And when he wants something from me, he expect it fast.
Wtf, dude.
I am trying to understand after so many shits he have been through now as he is serving his NS. & he is really tired and shit.
I just need him to walk into his mom's bedroom and take the shampoo, end of story.
& just because of this.... fuck.
K, maybe it is my fault too.
-.-
Just feeling fucking pissed.
I really need to rant it here
I guess I feel better alrdy.
There is particularly nobody for me to rant to as most of my friends are probably sleeping.
& yeah, I dont want to trouble them.
So, yeah, shall blog later again.




Friday, 7 March 2014, 01:30

{Photo source : Google.com} 
Was browsing through my facebook
While I having a break from my studies
Notice that some girls seriously have no shame and start getting super cheap. 
Like seriously, why take nude pictures from a bloody non professional photographer and the pictures turn out to be like shit and slutty? 
Professional photographer who took nude pictures are so much more nicer and super artistic. But seriously, the one which pop out on facebook, seriously disgusting  I know people will be telling me I can choose not to look at it. But, hey, I am curious okay? So yeah, I took a look but I find it so fucking disgusting and I just close the brower. 
Ew, what are they thinking?  If they want to take nude pictures, seriously, find a professional photographer and look through their port folios before deciding. 

& yes, you are super famous for taking such shameless and disgusting pictures. 




Thursday, 6 March 2014, 20:48

A new picture for new update of blog. 
This is my very own photo which has just been taken about 
20 minutes ago and i am loving this picture a lot. 
I'm am just a beginner in photography
& of cause i need lots of practicing. 
which i do not mind spending lots of time for it. 
Photo taking has been my hobby since about 2 years ago
when i had my first encounter with rescued dogs and stray dogs.
i started taking pictures of dogs using my very own mobile phone
but that's when my mobile phone decided to be a bitch.
My phone started to heat up and that's it. 
Low battery. 
& it is really hard using a mobile phone to take pictures of animals
especially when they are running around. 
what sucks the most, is when my dog actually poses a very unique pose for me
my phone took about 5s to proceed and when my dog move within
that 5s, the photo turn out to be BLUR.  
So, my boyfriend decided to purchase me a Canon Camera, EOS 1100D 
for me to continue my hobby BUT only when i am not busy with studies. 
So, yeah, i really love photography a lot. 

So, basically, my day started out to be quite crappy.
Rushing to school, to find out that my classes have already ended.
Pretty much screwed up, eh?
Whats next?
I was heating up curry and i wanted to take the curry bowl out of the rice cooker,
& viola, the curry spills on my favorite plain white class jersey, my hair, my face and on my thighs. 
DAMN IT.
What a good day. 
But hey, the day has not end yet. 
I am definitely not gonna give up just because of some
crappy things happened in the early noon. 
I'm gonna end my post here
as i need to start my studies soon 
as my examinations are coming in just 3 days time!
& i have 58 chapters waiting for me to study them.
Oh my stars, i am really feeling dizzy when i think about the amount of chapters i need to study for.




Tuesday, 4 March 2014, 20:22

Currently, I am doing some photoshoots of 
plants and animals. This is a photo which is 
not edited. Sadly, I have already deleted 
the edited picture which my friend had
helped me with. Really appreciate his help. :) 

Life, is like a rollar coaster. 
It will always have ups and downs. 
It have never come across my mind
that friends can be enemies within
a few weeks and that friend turn out
to be someone whom you no longer once knew. A friend who stabbed you at the back and claims themselves as innocent and pushes all the blames unto you. 
I trust people too easily. 
Like WAY TOO EASILY.
& this is what happens when you trusted a friend too easily and everything came crushing down after you guys fall out with each other. 
I have seen it coming. 
I should have listen to my good friends who are always by my side telling me that this friend is unreliable and untrustable. 
But I am way too naive. 
Not willing to listen to any of their advices and continued my friendship.
It is only when things start turning really awful. Than I realize that this friend is really unreliable and untrustable. 
But Thank God, I am not too late to realize it. This is a lesson well learnt. 
Never trust a person too easily. 

Anyway, I am not a very professional photographer. But I do enjoy taking pictures of animals and plants. 
I am still working on how am I going to make a real perfect shot. A really very perfect shot which will make people wo WOAH. instead of, what?! This is under expose and so on. 
Thank God I know 2 friends who happen to be a pro/semi-professional photographer. 
Well, stay tuned to more pictures!




Sunday, 2 March 2014, 08:09



I feel seriously disgusted by myself when i log into PhotoBucket to discover horrible
pictures myself when i'm in secondary 1 & 2.
But after all, they are really good memories!
& bad memories...

I can still remember those happy times when we are really very united back in secondary 1.
Though we quarreled a lot and always falling out with one another.
Sadly, everything have already gone.
All i need to know is that i have to and i must treasure those friends
who are always for me but not taking advantage of me. 

I used to have a friend whom i treated her as best friend.
Helping her when she need some financial help, support & a ear when
she is feeling really down. 
I neglected my own boyfriend just to be there for her when she needed someone. 
I treasure her really a lot as a best friend.
But what happen next? 
Not appreciated. 
You may say that i am being calculative or i AM calculative. 
The fact is if you own people money, basic common sense is to return it back
when you have the fucking money. 
But not bloody hell spending it on YOURSELF and GAMBLE it away
and don't even bother to contact the person whom you loan from. 
Instead, waiting for that person to fucking contact you and asked you for it. 
So what now?
Trying to prove that you like it when they chase after you for money?

It has been for 1 year since you owe me. 

I do appreciate if you return it after you got your pay. 
But did you?
No. Instead, you start gambling, buying these and that.
Have you ever once think,' Oh shit! i still owe (name) money!' ? 
Apparently, NOT.
Instead, you are waiting for people to chase after you over money.
Don't you feel ashamed of yourself? 
Don't you ever feel angry of yourself that you need others to push you?
Don't you feel ashamed that others need to remind you again and again?
You still have the fucking cheeks to boost around about your new stuff.
& eating in restaurants.
i have never seen a thick skin lady like you. 
Never in my damn life. 

Yes, i hate you now.
& i'm sure you are aware of it. 
But have you ever touch your fucking heart and ask yourself why?
WHY I HATE YOU when i used to treasure and appreciate you so much?
You only know how to push the blame on others
like you are some sort of HOLY FUCKING ANGEL
& we, are like some sort of EVIL DEMON trying to crush your fucking HAPPINESS.
sorry, ain't nobody have time for that.
& i am not that bitchy. 

Please, do think about others next time. 
Just because they don't ask for it doesn't mean they have forgotten about it
In fact, they are actually waiting for that one day, when you will contact them
automatically and return the money back to them. 
(I'm talking about MAJORITIES about OTHERS
But not playing MIA (missing-in-action)

Even if you start boasting about your new stuff & eating in restaurants, 
i still did not chase after you because i still treat you as my friend and still
have that little hope in me that you will contact me soon about the issue.

But after all those mind games you played with me, it is really the last straw.
I can't believe i even TRIED to patch you back with your used to be best friend,
after hearing your stories and all those hardships you claimed you have been through
and you felt that you have neglected your used to be best friend and how you longed
to appreciate her. 
I'm really too stupid to believe all your LIES. 




07:17


can't be bothered about my profile area.
I tried many ways to crop it to fit into the box perfectly.
But i guess i am unable to make it perfect.
Din't blog for years and i practically forgot how to make it fit perfectly.

well,  i swear i din't blog for a long time. & i don't have the intention actually.
But i am too lazy to write a diary so i decided to just re-make my blog
and type everything inside instead of writing.

 so, here we go...

I have never think for others that much in the past.
Let alone is right now.
I find myself too selfish to even care about others that much.
& having a really bad temper recently.
I will start throwing my temper the moment i know i am unable
to get what i want.
That's when problems start coming in.
& i hate myself for that.
Why can't i just control my bloody temper?
This question have been coming into my bloody mind for several times.
But it seems like this question is never solve.

A family which used to be happy, now it is broken up into tiny pieces.
Can those tiny pieces form back into one big piece? No.
& it can never be.
I once wish for a happy family, with totally no ups & downs.
Just always happy. Like fairy tale.
I'm too naive. Like a 3 year old kid. Believing that there are santa claus,
believing that there is a tooth fairy.
Believing that there will always be happy ending.
In this world, it can never happen.
A family, which was once so strong, now weakens...