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Harriel Thai
19 this year
15.09.1995

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Sunday, 2 March 2014, 08:09



I feel seriously disgusted by myself when i log into PhotoBucket to discover horrible
pictures myself when i'm in secondary 1 & 2.
But after all, they are really good memories!
& bad memories...

 I can still remember those happy times when we are really very united back in secondary 1.
Though we quarreled a lot and always falling out with one another.
Sadly, everything have already gone.
All i need to know is that i have to and i must treasure those friends
who are always for me but not taking advantage of me. 

 I used to have a friend whom i treated her as best friend.
Helping her when she need some financial help, support & a ear when
she is feeling really down. 
I neglected my own boyfriend just to be there for her when she needed someone. 
I treasure her really a lot as a best friend.
But what happen next? 
Not appreciated. 
You may say that i am being calculative or i AM calculative. 
The fact is if you own people money, basic common sense is to return it back
when you have the fucking money. 
But not bloody hell spending it on YOURSELF and GAMBLE it away
and don't even bother to contact the person whom you loan from. 
Instead, waiting for that person to fucking contact you and asked you for it. 
So what now?
Trying to prove that you like it when they chase after you for money?
It has been for 1 year since you owe me. 

I do appreciate if you return it after you got your pay. 
But did you?
No. Instead, you start gambling, buying these and that.
Have you ever once think,' Oh shit! i still owe (name) money!' ? 
Apparently, NOT.
Instead, you are waiting for people to chase after you over money.
Don't you feel ashamed of yourself? 
Don't you ever feel angry of yourself that you need others to push you?
Don't you feel ashamed that others need to remind you again and again?
You still have the fucking cheeks to boost around about your new stuff.
& eating in restaurants.
i have never seen a thick skin lady like you. 
Never in my damn life. 

 Yes, i hate you now.
& i'm sure you are aware of it. 
But have you ever touch your fucking heart and ask yourself why?
WHY I HATE YOU when i used to treasure and appreciate you so much?
You only know how to push the blame on others
like you are some sort of HOLY FUCKING ANGEL. 
& we, are like some sort of EVIL DEMON trying to crush your fucking HAPPINESS.
sorry, ain't nobody have time for that.
& i am not that bitchy. 

 Please, do think about others next time. 
Just because they don't ask for it doesn't mean they have forgotten about it
In fact, they are actually waiting for that one day, when you will contact them
automatically and return the money back to them. 
(I'm talking about MAJORITIES about OTHERS) 
But not playing MIA (missing-in-action)

 Even if you start boasting about your new stuff & eating in restaurants, 
i still did not chase after you because i still treat you as my friend and still
have that little hope in me that you will contact me soon about the issue.

 But after all those mind games you played with me, it is really the last straw.
I can't believe i even TRIED to patch you back with your used to be best friend,
after hearing your stories and all those hardships you claimed you have been through
and you felt that you have neglected your used to be best friend and how you longed
to appreciate her. 
I'm really too stupid to believe all your LIES.